Reality

I miss having a simple life, where I have friends that I can talk to and trust.

Everyone around me backstabs each other everyday, and playing two-face is their specialty. I wonder if this is the company culture, or the Chinese culture, where you must do this to your colleagues every moment to show your strengths/values. I understand that the real world is competitive, and that you're likely stepping on others to move up the corporate ladder. But isn't making things up about others a bit too much? People start spreading rumors and commenting that I spend a lot of money lately, because I'm wearing clothes that they've never seen before, and I go back to Taiwan every other month. Just because you've never seen my clothes doesn't mean they're new. And do you have a problem with me spending my own money and getting discounted tickets to visit my parents? I don't think about leeching every penny off or taking advantage of everyone else, nor do I despise things that I have no knowledge of.

Everyday I have to constantly remind myself what I believe in, and what proper manners should be like. I'm afraid that I'll eventually lose myself and become one of them (manner and integrity-wise) one day.